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24 March 2013 @ 10:40 am
[Trans] Kame Camera - Vol.26 Alone  
Highlights:
-he describes his "Tokyo trip alone" that he often talked about on TV too.
-what he thinks about the human relationships
-the reason behind him being kind with people he loves.
-explaining that even hard jobs he does alone will become KAT-TUN's strength...

Thanks to scorch66 for the English betaread ♥


KAME CAMERA

What's the scenery of the bottom of the heart that Kamenashi Kazuya's lens reflects?

Vol. 26 ひとり ALONE


「The feelings of wanting to be “a helpful human being” for the people dear to me become my source behind my power to fight.」

kamekamera26

This is the picture of the sunset I took from a hotel I stayed at during a Tokyo trip I took alone. In winter the atmosphere is clean so I could even see Mt.Fuji very clearly. While I gazed at the scenery alone, I wanted to share my moved feelings with someone, so in the end I sometimes called my family to my room (laughs).



I like to have a “Tokyo trip alone” now and then during the crevice of time in the routine schedule. This is what I call the staying at hotels in Tokyo by myself (laughs). Yesterday too, from the afternoon I had off time, so I stayed at a hotel and came here. As breakfast I ate my beloved Eggs Benedict, I reserved the pool and swam there, and after taking a shower I came here. It’s something extravagant to do since my house is in the metropolitan area, but I can taste the feeling of an easy-going trip and it cleans my body and spirit from tiredness even in periods when I can’t take a sizable vacation. The “Tokyo trip alone” is a precious time for me. When I’m busy, even if I manage to go back home, I lose against the tiredness; I sleep till the very last minute before going out for work and tend to become sluggish… If I stay at a hotel, not only can I wake up in the morning, but I can also enjoy my breakfast while gazing at the scenery outside the window. I sometimes display my favorite clothes in the closet which is peculiar of hotels (laughs). Doing so, I feel like my pressed heart and time go back to a normal speed while enjoying a luxurious span of time.

For me, the time I am alone is “a time I take care of myself”. This time is the unique time in which I, to whom it is normal to always care about others, take care with my heart exclusively of me. More than being about simply spoiling myself, it’s something more akin to acting cool towards myself (laughs). When I’m at home alone, I wear my favorite robe, I properly clean and cook, I also examine my clothes and the room’s interior that I normally wouldn’t notice. If I gaze at my properties from an objective point of view and can think “Isn’t this good!” (laughs), the strength to give my best from the day after too springs out.


Because there is the presence of precious people that “being alone” has a meaning.


Humans have no other choice than to basically struggle alone. Especially in my case, I strongly think this because I have a personality that can’t demand attention from others and can neither depend on them. Of course I know that I’m not alone if I’m in need so there’s also this fact, but…. Family, friends, lover and work colleagues, it’s not a matter-of-fact that these precious people are on your side. They are relationships that won’t grow if both sides don’t make efforts, and there is the sense of danger that any human relationship is uncertain. Of course I believe that even if I become a good for nothing, the relationship with my family or friends won’t change, but on the other side, I also think that most probably my present human relationships stand because my work side is stable. For example, of course when I go out eating with my family or kohai, but also when I go out eating with older friends, I want to pay. About this, I have not the slightest intention of “I’m doing them a favor”. On the contrary, it’s my feeling of “thank you for spending a fun time with me”. I mean, I’m doing it because I want to share with the people next to me the beautiful scenery I saw or the delicious food [I ate]. The money and time I spend with people, at the end, are also something for myself. It’s because right now I’m in a condition in which I can do such things and I want to be a helpful human being for my important people, that maybe I can give my best at work every day.

This is the same about KAT-TUN. Obviously it’s an important existence and there are many things we can do only if we’re a group. But if you content yourself with just being in a group, it’s a matter of fact that you will become lenient. The mind with which each member raises his own consciousness and reinforces his foundation called “himself”, is important too. Me too, the more my individual activities like dramas and movies increase, the more I feel my weak points and how much I am not good enough. It’s a succession of reflections as “That time I should have done it like this”; but this experience of being placed in a strict environment day after day, surely I will be able to make full use of it in KAT-TUN activities too. To begin with, I’ll fight while enjoying this “being alone”.


Kame’s fixed point of observation
This is a photoshot taken with the setting sun. While looking at himself reflected in the monitor, he solitarily said “I became an adult too…” “I’m 27 years old already. Both the face and the body form have changed. When I was 20, I was more than 10 kg lighter than now, and even though back then I didn’t gain weight no matter how much I ate, now I gain weight from what I eat without fail (laughs). Recently I had Panasonic CM filming, so for the previous week I tightened my body by banning alcohol, eating once a day and just one piece of tofu. Maybe I’m the type who, if doesn’t have such a job regularly, can’t hang on (laughs)”.
By Maquia



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This Maquia left me a bittersweet taste :( But since Scorch66 and I have different opinions about what he said, I am going to keep silent and not comment this volume because I want to see what people comment ^^'
 
 
 
jennie_anniejennie_annie on March 24th, 2013 10:38 am (UTC)
New to comment here!

He seems so sad and lonely. :( He even reserves the pool for himself, just so he can swim---most probably alone. And I don't know how other people took it, but to me, it seems like he was practically starving himself for a week. Did I read that right? He only ate a piece a tofu once a day? I think he needs a super long vacay and to not worry so much about everything. Then again, it seems like he truly doesn't know what to do with himself if he isn't busy. Poor Kame!

Thank you so much for taking the time to translate! Much appreciated! :)
your friendly neighborhood Isi: Kame piecesiside89 on March 24th, 2013 01:41 pm (UTC)
Yes, he said he ate one piece of tofu once a day and that was his only meal for the whole day. (he probably integrated with energetic drinks because he'd have passed out on the street, I guess). So yes, I read it as if he was starving himself for one week ><

You're welcome and thank you for the first comment :)
(no subject) - jennie_annie on March 25th, 2013 05:11 am (UTC) (Expand)
(no subject) - iside89 on March 25th, 2013 12:12 pm (UTC) (Expand)
moveslikekame: 約束~moveslikekame on March 24th, 2013 10:49 am (UTC)
Can't remember the show Kame was in when he also mentioned he liked sleeping in hotels and often invited his family members into his room.

He sure has unique tastes. But damn I love how classy and lavish he is ♥ Love his lifestyle.
Lol-ed at the part about reserving the pool for himself though. Rich boy Ore!Cho Kamenashi XD

"But on the other side, I also think that most probably my present human relationships stand because my work side is stable" - I can't with this thought. I hope his friends aren't like this.

Kame saying he banned alcohol to keep fit for Panasonic CM makes me wonder just how often he drinks. But I thought maybe he drank wine every day to make him relax.

Thanks for this Isi~! ♥
your friendly neighborhood Isi: Kame - Kibou wo mune niiside89 on March 24th, 2013 01:45 pm (UTC)
It was Shaberikuri 007. I casually rewatched it a couple of hours before reading and translating this xD
Yes I wonder how much does he drink normally then. But well he's Japanese and they drink a lot as basis, so I'm not very surprised. (and lol yes, Kame, you're getting older, this is why you gain weight. It happens to everyone xDDD)

Edited at 2013-03-24 01:47 pm (UTC)
(no subject) - moveslikekame on March 24th, 2013 03:07 pm (UTC) (Expand)
queen_maharaniqueen_maharani on March 24th, 2013 11:45 am (UTC)
Thank you for the translation ^^

And, maybe it's just me and my opinion that having trip alone or having me-time is somehow good for ourselves. I enjoyed my me-time so much because it can be more refreshing. Eventhough sometimes hang out with friends is good as well.

And, I love you, Kame, for being you :D
Seelenlichtseelenlicht on March 24th, 2013 11:58 am (UTC)
This one was really interesting. I kinda had the feeling that the last two issues (you've translated) were kinda a bit "lighter"? I don't know whether it's a god way too describe them, but I didn't have the "Oh his maquia *sobs* *sobs*" feelings. Well and now I have plenty of them XD

The first part kinda sums up what he also said in shabekuri last year, doesn't it. Just with a lil more depth...like always :-)
I really like his ways to "spoil" himself a bit...and I'm also glad that he is totally able to do this. Like every person just needs a time when he doesn't care that much about the others but just about himself.

I don't know about which part you were speaking...?
But I think the parts which makes me kinda sad and bother me...are where he says that he isn't really able to depend on the others and that he doesn't take the love of his family and friends for granted.
Like it sounds...that he thinks that these people don't love him because he is himself...but because of the achievements he made. I wish he would have a bite more...trust? in people.
But well on the other side I completely understand him because basically I'm way worse when it comes to topics like this and depending on someone...so...
I also don't think that you really have "to thank" people who spend time with you...because I'm pretty sure that most of the time these people are also glad to spend time with him.
He is an awesome person, he should realize that a bit more >_>

I'm not really bothered by the alcohol thingy (cause like Gabi said, it kinda means that he drinks at least a few times a week?) The same like I'm absolutely not bothered by his smoking...because I think in regard to his crazy schedule these are the fastest and most efficient ways to relax yourself.

And srsl what is that with Jp men and they constant whining about the age? O.o
He doesn't really speak that much about it here, but you get to hear just EVERYWHERE and really from EVERYONE that they keep talking about turning 30 and the fact that they are getting older.
It's not like you're old when you're turning 30,k so sometimes I just have the need to headdesk when I read such stuff.

And I love his chubby self, so please go and gain weight XD And then we can open an official fanclub for his adorable little tummy ♥

Thank you for translating :-))

abyssinian13abyssinian13 on March 24th, 2013 12:41 pm (UTC)
thank you very much for sharing..

everyone, i think, needs times to be alone..especially him whose job demands him to be available to everyone..and like what he said in shakeburi 007, these alone times are like a gift on himself for a job well done or a when his in a creative mood..it allows him to be refreshed..and we all know know that he likes to pamper himself when his schedule allows it..

-Humans have no other choice than to basically struggle alone. - totally can see him do this..he has been doing this since he was a junior, taking on responsibilities and jobs not only to promote himself but also for KAT-TUN, mostly for his group..i guess he has gotten better at sharing loads these days because he knows the rest of KAT-TUN is there to back him up..

--Of course I believe that even if I become a good for nothing, the relationship with my family or friends won’t change, but on the other side, I also think that most probably my present human relationships stand because my work side is stable.--i guess he is being realistic here.. he knows that none of the human relationships that he has now (except for his family and friends) is permanent and depends on how he is doing job wise ..

i love his thoughts on spending times with his family and those people who are close to him..about not thinking that he's doing them a favor by spending time with them but considering the other's presence as a gift to him..shows how much he values these relationships that he has..

that one week of banning alcohol and eating tofu once a day surely paid off..panasonic cm is beautiful..

thanks again for translating and sharing!!!!





erhyme on March 24th, 2013 12:57 pm (UTC)
thank you for translating and sharing :) reading Kame Camera is always fun.. because Kame's way of thinking is somehow relate-able.

but reading this one, once again I think.. this person is really lonely. deep down in his core, he is really lonely and tired. there's no doubt that he's hardworking and strong, but I can't help but to think that he's really lonely. like, the way he paid the meal when eating out with friends family or kouhai as a way for being thankful that the people spend time with him.. represents how lonely he is (in my opinion). like, you are thankful, then you pay.. I understand, but at the same time I feel that.. is lonely.

Also, this one. "Humans have no other choice than to basically struggle alone. " I wonder how many lonely experience has he went through, so that he finally managed to say this?

nevertheless, my admiration goes to him as he managed to stay strong despite of his hardships. no matter what, I hope he will never lose himself.. and that when he said he can enjoy his works, he truly mean it.
Maria: Kame w zamyśleniublue_eye1 on March 24th, 2013 01:44 pm (UTC)
I understand that bittersweet taste though for me there is much more bitterness and somehow word loneliness screams in my head

Kazuya said here things that I find nice and sweet yet there also these words, these two or three sentences that I don't like at all. I understand where it might come from or does come from yet for someone like me it's scary that things like that occupy his mind.

'wanting to be “a helpful human being”' and "even if I become a good for nothing"
It makes me remember few of his past interviews for different magazines and few events from his past that he talked about or we witnessed them already ourselves as fans and it makes me wonder more about "behind the scenes" of these statments and the reasonings.

To lighten up my comment a bit I must say that I like the fact that he calles his family to his hotel room so he can share beautifull and moving things with them. He definitely is a sensitive guy that needs to belong and share for the right reasons despite enjoying that "me time".

Thank You very much for the translation ^_^
KKblahblah on March 24th, 2013 01:57 pm (UTC)
Thank you very much!!!

"Family, friends, lover and work colleagues, it’s not a matter-of-fact that these precious people are on your side. They are relationships that won’t grow if both sides don’t make efforts, and there is the sense of danger that any human relationship is uncertain. " #scarred
kaze_no_hisui: lonelykaze_no_hisui on March 24th, 2013 03:16 pm (UTC)
thank you for the hard work <3 <3
消えないこの絆: Pillow! Kamesibylblack on March 24th, 2013 03:48 pm (UTC)
Alcune cose che ha detto mi hanno fatta rimanere così male che non riesco nemmeno a commentare...
sarò di umore melodrammatico io anche, però... >.<

Grazie per la traduzione ♥ vado a tirarmi su leggendo l'intervista che hai tradotto per l'anniversario dei nostri bimbi *___*
your friendly neighborhood Isi: Kame B/W styleiside89 on March 24th, 2013 07:11 pm (UTC)
Mi sa che sono all'incirca le stesse frasi che hanno lasciato ._. pure me ^^''
E vedo che l'idea è abbastanza condivisa quindi non è colpa dell'umore tuo ._.

prego ^^
bellemelodybellemelody on March 24th, 2013 08:15 pm (UTC)
thank you very much for translation <3
kazuya01 on March 24th, 2013 08:31 pm (UTC)
Thanx for the translation. :)
saharasnow82saharasnow82 on March 24th, 2013 09:06 pm (UTC)
Thanks so much for another Maquia translation. Now here goes my essay response to Kame’s essay.

I think I get where Kame is coming from in his essay. To me he is talking about taking a step back from his routine and trying to keep himself from just going through the motions. It’s only when he is alone that Kame has the ability to recharge his batteries and assess what is going on in his life.

When you are at home you get caught up in the everyday routine and you can lose yourself in that, get too comfortable and complacent. In your home you are completely relaxed and used to it. Even the chores and stressors of your everyday life just become a part of you and what you do and you don’t really think about it. Especially when you have your family and friends around you who are in tuned to your ways and routines and just pick up your slack and help you along and vice versa.

My mother and her boyfriend do the same thing as Kame. They will just take a weekend and stay at a hotel in the next city over. It’s not a full on vacation but just a short change in scenery. You get to stay in a space that you are not familiar with (even if you stay in the same hotel every time you may get a different room which would give you a different view and the room set up may be slightly different) and you don’t have to worry about cooking, cleaning, laundry, etc. You get the opportunity to step back and enjoy things. When someone else is making the meals, changing your bedding and cleaning it, when you do not have to think about work and responsibilities for that time you are away you get the time to sit there and be introspective, to sort out where your life is now and where you want it to go. You realize what’s really important in your life because you end up missing it while you are away and thereby you learn what extraneous stuff needs to be cut out of your life.

I will warn you now this part is going to get a little depressing. Kame has learned, probably in some very hard ways, that the people around you will not be around you forever. Friends stop being friends; people have to move away for one reason or another; people in your life die. You can’t be 100% dependent on the people around you. You have to have some level of independence and self-sufficiency. That doesn’t mean you cannot have relationships and appreciate the people in your life, humans are social beings at the end of the day, but you do have to be strong as a solitary individual.

In regards to being apart from KAT-TUN in some of his jobs he is still learning about himself. When you are on your own away from the group you really get the opportunity to see your strengths and weaknesses. There is no one to pick up your slack or cover for you when you make a mistake. All eyes are on you and they will see everything you do right and especially everything you do wrong. With everyone and their cousin pointing out what you did wrong, not to mention how an individual can be his own worst critic, how can you not try to work on yourself and get better? Kame is then saying that the things he learns by being on his own are things he can take back to KAT-TUN to make it better.

I was okay with this piece until I hit the Maquia observation bit. This is why I always worry about him. His weight is constantly fluctuating almost drastically within a short span of time. He goes from Bem weight to baseball player weight back to Bem weight within a matter of months. I’m worried about the stress he keeps putting on his body like this.
xnymxxnymx on March 24th, 2013 10:01 pm (UTC)
Thanks for your translation. <3

I read it twice because at first I couldn't really grasp what he was trying to express but it made me feel more sorry for him. :/ The pic he took really gives the "I'm alone"-vibe and that makes this entry even more lonelier. I always have been a fan and it really makes me sad to know that he's trying to minimize (maybe unconsciously ?) how lonely he feels. :/

I'm glad he can enjoy some time alone just by himself, relaxing and enjoying his rest because he needs that. That's a good "alone"-time y'know. But somehow it also makes me think that he isolates himself from everyting just to be himself without being judged, without behaving like people expect him to, and it's a bit depressing (be it at home or in a hotel). But his constant thought of "always take care of others" is a bit self-destructing. Right now, it sounds like he's doing things only to please others or people expectations (even if he always says he loves crushing people expectations...) and not for himself. I wish he would just do what he really wants without caring what the society will think or consequences because I have the feeling that he's holding his true self back just because he knows society will judge him or won't approve. (Well that's how I see him right now. ><)

And then, his thoughts on relationships makes me so sad for him. Of course he's honorable of him to think that he should thank people accompanying/supporting him but not to such an extent. To know that Kame doesn't even take for guarantee that his family and friends are willing to be with him just because he is Kamenashi Kazuya the person and not Kamenashi Kazuya the idol, it's just depressing. I can understand that because of his status he has to maintain some sort of 'work-relationship' in which money is more important than actual feelings but what I don't understand is his idea of friendship. Friends don't stay around because of how many zero your bank account has but for you, your personality, the memories shared with you, ... And him being conscious that some of his 'friends' only stay because he has money is so wrong. And because he is an idol, he should be more conscious of that. He can't accept things like that. (Well imo, Kame is very conscious of that but he just lives with it and accept it because he thinks it's how things should be.) Then, I hope this doesn't include his family because that would makes it really miserable. He should have his family and friends support for everything he does and he should know that they support him because he deserves this support for all the efforts and sacrifices he's making and not to get a bit of the 'glory' he earns. And then again, everything he said about relationships show how little he trusts himself and people. I really hope there's someone out there who will make him realize that he worths that people stick around because he is Kamenashi Kazuya and that he doesn't need people only sticking around for his fame. <3

Let's end with something a bit more joyful than what I wrote above. x) Kame, you're aging (and it suits you very well tbh!) so yeah you're becoming 'fatter'/chubbier ! lol But please, don't starve yourself. O: And, just how much do you drink on a regular basis ?

P.S. : I'm sorry for that long comment. m(_ _)m I dunno if I made sens because I was just writing every things that were coming into my mind. x) And once again, thank you for translating his MAQUIA entry. It must be a hard and must take you some of your free time, so really thank you for your hard work. <3
抱いて~♥nofsummer on March 24th, 2013 10:26 pm (UTC)
thank you isi. It's hard to have an opinion when one is doing a sort of life reflection's essay like this. I am not him and I don't live his life, or go through the things he went through, but I think life is an endless process, and how you perceive it will constantly change as well. He is doing fine, learning, making mistakes, and winning some. plus 'knowing' him, I want to believe he enjoys his life to the fullest.